Share Your Story Tuesday- Alexis Rose
I found out I was pregnant with my daughter on
September 19th, a month after my 18th birthday. I was so excited to be a mom since it is what I have always wanted but I was scared at the same time. My pregnancy was during my senior year of high school and all was going well except I would get dehydrated a lot. We always heard her heartbeat every at doctor appointment and at all the ultrasounds we had. I was RH- with my pregnancy so I had to get the shot of rhogram(not sure on spelling) at 32 weeks. We went to our 32 week appointment and everything was great and I got the shot. She was a healthy growing soccer kicker baby. The next couple days all was well then I went to sleep the night of April 30th, 2006 and woke up, the day started of okay. After I ate breakfast I didn’t feel her moving, I called her father as well as my doctor. She told me to drink juice, lay on left side but nothing was working. We went to the hospital that night and I so scared, worried and felt like our world was crashing down around us. It was also the day before my baby shower 😞. When we got to the hospital we went straight to labor and delivery. The nurse got the Doppler and started rubbing it around my belly but no heartbeat was found. When she left the room my heart was broken and my body knew something was wrong. When the doctor came in with the ultrasound machine and searched for a good 5 minutes, and still no heartbeat . We heard the most heartbreaking knews that no parent wants to hear. We are so sorry but your precious little girl is gone. I broke down and screamed no she was just fine what could have gone wrong. We started labor that night but my angel Alexis Rose was not born until May 1 2006 at 1am weighing in at 4lbs 4oz and 19 1/2 inches long perfection. She had ten perfect toes, ten perfect fingers, wonderful blue eyes and soft brown hair. She was so perfect and peaceful. Not hearing her cry, saying mommy, or just not being able to watch this perfect baby grow wasn’t fair. She stayed in my room with me all three days as pink and beautiful as ever.
Family and friends coming to visit saying sorry and giving hugs was sweet but knowing leaving empty handed just seemed so empty. Having that butterfly by my room telling everyone it wasn’t a happy room felt like the worse. It was so supposed to be the most remarkable time of our life’s but instead I was saying hello and goodbye to the one who felt my love from the inside. Telling our family we lost our sweet girl was the worst. I had to call my grandma on her birthday May 1 to tell her she lost her great grandchild- it definitley was not how I wanted her birthday to be remembered!!!! The last day I had with my love was the most difficult day for me. Feeling her cold stiff body against mine for the last time and kissing her sweet face felt like my whole heart was being left behind.
We kissed her one more time and held her together and cried and told her we loved her. We tugged her in her tiny little bed wrapped in a nice crochet dress and hat as well as a blanket so she wouldn’t be cold and then covered her over... walking out of the hospital with out my baby having people stare at you empty handed was just devastating. She is now my sweet angel watching over me and her three little rainbow brothers!! RIP SWEET ANGEL ALEXIS ROSE LASHBROOK